Nearing the Finish Line

Peace Be Upon You...

Grateful to God that has given me strength to persevere to finish my write up. Alhamdulillah. I finally submitted my final year dissertation on Thursday the 28th of March. I was very glad that I can finally part ways with my dissertation. The three months relationship with it have given me so much pain, physically and psychologically. I just care less about the result as I think I have given the best I could and the most that I have in myself. More than that it is all tawakkaltualallah. InsyaAllah for whatever result I would get I will have to take it with an open heart. Well, result does not determine how good we are as a human. I remembered my lecturers saying that even if we did not get good result in examinations or test or anything to do with that we are not actually failure. The result is only valid on papers. In real life who you are as a person that counts. Yeah I adore how supportive my lecturers are and how good they are at giving me and my friends countless advice to keep on living. And even if I get not good result for my degree I will not despair. InsyaAllah I will try hard to be a good educator. Teaching skills cannot be shown on papers but how we actually deal with our students. And I would really want to be a teacher that can inspire their life not only in education part but also spiritually. InsyaAllah

And since Easter break is already here in the UK, I'll embark on a journey long I left. I haven't been anywhere since december last year for the reason focusing on the dissertation. This time InsyaAllah I'll be visiting Holland, Egypt and Jordan. It would be a little tiring as this jaulah will take about 14 days and the day I come back to Plymouth on the 15th April, I'll need to head to class right away. heheh

Third Spring

Peace Be Upon You...

Spring is here. Around my place right now, I can see flowers blooming, all types of hybrid cherry blossom, dandelions, daffodils, magnolia and many wild flowers. They are so lovely and cute in their own ways. What I love about spring is the bright colours all those flowers brought to the dim world winter has hold and the nice sunny sun (maybe not always). Thinking of the nice weather and environment I have around me now slightly reminded me that this is my last spring in Plymouth and this experience will be most treasured T__T.
Probably I will never feel this way anymore. These  whole 3 years in the UK is a very warm experience and it not exaggerating if I say the loveliest of all in my entire life. And this actually has making me be more grateful of what I have.

To be back in Malaysia is another wonderful story but I definitely will never forget those sweet times I have here with friends and those wonderful people I met throughout my years here InsyaAllah ^__^

The Issue of Readyness: When?

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Lately I have been bothered with the issue of readiness in the topic of 'When to Marry?'  When will you know that you are ready? There are many arguments from varous people from different level of thinking and piousness I can say. A lot of people keep arguing on the readiness issue that sometimes it make me feel sick about it. And a lot of people too claim that their opinion should surpasses other in terms of determining when exactly you will be ready for marriage. Big sigh here...ughhhh. There is one source (a brother that I've heard) saying that 'when you see all your friends got married and you feel threatened by it then you are still not ready to marry yet' and another person said, 'if you are still very sensitive about simple2 things then you are not yet ready to marry' and many speculations on that made me thinking of it semi deeply. On my side, I just have the thought of what ground do they think what they are saying is true? Well, logically, is it a bad thing if you feel threatened by your friends when were married and you're not. If you are only in the range 18-25 of age, then I can say that this might be true in a sense. But if you are already 30 plus or maybe 40 then will you be able to say that you are still not ready to marry when you are already come to that age. I mean, we people actually have no idea when we are ready when it comes to this matter. The sole thing that I believe and hold on to is the destiny. When Allah say, this is the time for you to marry, then whether ready or not it will still happen, right. Then after having a light discussion on this matter with few mates, I remembered a senior who'd marry in at a tender age of 22. She got married in while on summer holiday back in Malaysia and came back here to finish her study for another year. She said,' Yes, marriage at a young age is hard if you look at it negatively but it does indeed brings you happiness that you've never had before', and asked about if she was ready back then to really marry a person she never knew before at the age of 22 she replied,'The thing is with readiness, you will never know when you willbe ready and sometimes you keep denying it saying you are not ready yet to embark into a new journey of life. But if you stay like that you will never be ready even if you reach a ripe age. I was not fully ready when I got married but the readiness just came to me when I got married and it never really bother me again. What you do in your marriage is counted not the readiness in yourself'. 

Yeah thats about it. I really take the senior's say as something very useful. It is true right? If you keep questioning yourself on when is the time 'ready' will come then it might not actually come even once in your life time but the willingness to try and do it that matter. Peace <3

Against All Odd

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Supposedly in this month of March, Spring is in the mood but out of sudden it started snowing again today. And for me this is a very rare occasion. Well I can't comment deeper on that because I haven't been a citizen of Plymouth for so long to have much experience on snowing in March. Bit still looking at the common pattern of season, winter should already end in February..hmmm. Not to mention the temperature drop quite drastically and today it is 0 degree and phewww so cold yet the wind is so strong that I shivered my way to class this morning. Even though the snow is just light and suitable to be called sleet but still the white substance flying in the mid air mesmerized me. And this mark the third wave of snow this year around. 
Ahh gonna miss this super cold condition when I'm back to my beloved home heheh