Peace Be Upon You...
Stereotypical I'm saying this, ' it is a 'good' thing when you get to study oversea', and i'm saying this in the context of my society where I come from. Yes, saying this, I can say that most students in their high school year would like to if given the opportunity to further their tertiary study oversea and i'm one of them of course. We students from my society i'm saying this, been bribed with the notion that 'those who go study oversea is clever student la you know what' Hahaha..and shamelessly admitting to this, i myself fell into the trap of believing this sort of myth. Those with thick spectacles and read books all the time will the first one who gets scholarships then straight away booked ticket to places in overseas university. Up until now, at this very moment, sometimes i just couldn't be grateful enough to God who have given this opportunity to be where i am here today. Not bragging but just showing my gratitude to my Lord who have been too good to me.
Many people will say that, 'wah luckylah you can go study far far, see the world and what not'. For me Yeahh you can't deny those thing. It really is a wonderful experience to be able to see the world, to be able to get out of my small world and broaden my horizon to which i have never had opportunity to do this before. Yeahh again, i'm thankful for what i've been given. I am to be frank, by far never was a clever student. Never that i break records of striving all A's in my subjects and never I was that students who study all the time. I admit that i did try very hard in my school days to be the best student but i never was. Maybe thats not my luck then but my best friend was. The fact that she is one of my best friend and the fact that she excel in her exam like everytime made me feel jealous and hopeless at the same time. I tried my very best to be like her or if not just have a little piece of her excellence but unfortunately i was not that brilliant child indeed. Then i learned to accept what God has given me and here I am today. I'm not trying to say i'm good enough to be here but all that i've got, God have given me. On her first try, my friend got handful of scholarships but she chose the one that will secure her seat into Medical school in Ireland and i was left stranded searching for my path and do not mention all my hopes were doomed. I , back then always adore those who get to study oversea until i myself in that seat then i know what is the true feeling of it.
People might say its a good thing to be here but you won't really know the condition until you yourself experience it. To be far away from family and not to mention friends is not an easy thing you know. Sometimes when times gets hard, you would just feel like not being far away like this is better. To be here, whether like it or not, a little sacrifice need to be made, just a little. Don't worry. I just need to sacrifice my time with my family, and friends back home, sacrifice my bed for a new bed in a new place, sacrifice all those food i use to eat and a lot more on little little things. It was a little hard at first but as time goes by you won't even notice that you have once, cannot live without those things. But up until now, there is only one thing that i feel like a little too hard to get used to; being far away from the people you spent your whole life with, your parents and family. Yes this thing sometimes drives me bananas especially when there are hard times keeps collapsing on me. Seeing their faces through skype calls did made things a little better but can't beat the sensation of their presence in front of you. For me, i once experienced grieve when my beloved grandfather passed away back in January and no words can explain these occurance.The one thing that sticks with me is patience. One thing that i wanna convey here is, if you would like to have the experience of living far away from family the one thing that u need to sacrifice is your presence around your family, and the feelings of affection of being together.
Here in this opportunity, i would like to say gudluck to my dearest little sister in her final exam this coming May. She too, soon will be making small sacrifice like me but for her, the distance is not this great. Anyway, nothing else that i wish except for all the good things may be with her.
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| Life does not always promise you bright sun |
Stereotypical I'm saying this, ' it is a 'good' thing when you get to study oversea', and i'm saying this in the context of my society where I come from. Yes, saying this, I can say that most students in their high school year would like to if given the opportunity to further their tertiary study oversea and i'm one of them of course. We students from my society i'm saying this, been bribed with the notion that 'those who go study oversea is clever student la you know what' Hahaha..and shamelessly admitting to this, i myself fell into the trap of believing this sort of myth. Those with thick spectacles and read books all the time will the first one who gets scholarships then straight away booked ticket to places in overseas university. Up until now, at this very moment, sometimes i just couldn't be grateful enough to God who have given this opportunity to be where i am here today. Not bragging but just showing my gratitude to my Lord who have been too good to me.
Many people will say that, 'wah luckylah you can go study far far, see the world and what not'. For me Yeahh you can't deny those thing. It really is a wonderful experience to be able to see the world, to be able to get out of my small world and broaden my horizon to which i have never had opportunity to do this before. Yeahh again, i'm thankful for what i've been given. I am to be frank, by far never was a clever student. Never that i break records of striving all A's in my subjects and never I was that students who study all the time. I admit that i did try very hard in my school days to be the best student but i never was. Maybe thats not my luck then but my best friend was. The fact that she is one of my best friend and the fact that she excel in her exam like everytime made me feel jealous and hopeless at the same time. I tried my very best to be like her or if not just have a little piece of her excellence but unfortunately i was not that brilliant child indeed. Then i learned to accept what God has given me and here I am today. I'm not trying to say i'm good enough to be here but all that i've got, God have given me. On her first try, my friend got handful of scholarships but she chose the one that will secure her seat into Medical school in Ireland and i was left stranded searching for my path and do not mention all my hopes were doomed. I , back then always adore those who get to study oversea until i myself in that seat then i know what is the true feeling of it.
People might say its a good thing to be here but you won't really know the condition until you yourself experience it. To be far away from family and not to mention friends is not an easy thing you know. Sometimes when times gets hard, you would just feel like not being far away like this is better. To be here, whether like it or not, a little sacrifice need to be made, just a little. Don't worry. I just need to sacrifice my time with my family, and friends back home, sacrifice my bed for a new bed in a new place, sacrifice all those food i use to eat and a lot more on little little things. It was a little hard at first but as time goes by you won't even notice that you have once, cannot live without those things. But up until now, there is only one thing that i feel like a little too hard to get used to; being far away from the people you spent your whole life with, your parents and family. Yes this thing sometimes drives me bananas especially when there are hard times keeps collapsing on me. Seeing their faces through skype calls did made things a little better but can't beat the sensation of their presence in front of you. For me, i once experienced grieve when my beloved grandfather passed away back in January and no words can explain these occurance.The one thing that sticks with me is patience. One thing that i wanna convey here is, if you would like to have the experience of living far away from family the one thing that u need to sacrifice is your presence around your family, and the feelings of affection of being together.
Here in this opportunity, i would like to say gudluck to my dearest little sister in her final exam this coming May. She too, soon will be making small sacrifice like me but for her, the distance is not this great. Anyway, nothing else that i wish except for all the good things may be with her.
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